I can’t remember when it was but I read an article in a paper about a woman who lay dead in her flat for over a year before anyone noticed she was dead. This really got to me. How could someone be dead for a year and nobody notice? Perhaps she was a loner… No she had a job, a boyfriend, a family. She lived in a block of flats – she had neighbours. Her TV and lights were on for a full year. Admittedly her boyfriend weren’t that serious by the sounds of it and her and her family were close, but a year… a whole year.

Who would miss you if you died? Who would worry if they hadn’t seen you? Everybody should have someone. Can you be someone for somebody?

I reckon people would notice me gone quite quickly. I live with two other people who it would probably take quite a long time to notice but when they noticed my mum’s messages on the answer phone and me not doing their washing up, changing the toilet roll, and taking the rubbish out they’d figure something was up. Probably think I had PMT and was being moody. Still I have people who would notice after a day, like my boyfriend and my mum, who lives miles away but has a strange sixth sense and would have called my boyfriend and asked him to bash down the door.

Morbid thoughts. But stuff that’s been running through my mind.